Saturday, July 31, 2010

a few summer memories...

I couldn't help this...a few memories from childhood summers...

The summer that we moved to Sylvester, we moved into a three bedroom, Florida-style, white block house (with crank out windows) in the middle of NOWHERE...I mean nowhere...you couldn't find the house if you didn't know where it was. You had to turn down a lane to get to the house, down a dirt road, surrounded by a canopy of trees and woods...and of course, cotton fields.

Well, after moving there, Daddy wasn't working so he took care of the three of us. He made us read for something atrocious like 2-3 hours a day. Every now and then he would take us to Jimmy's hot dogs in downtown Albany and we would sit down by the river and eat our red hot dogs full of chili and cheese, or chili and slaw (my favorite) on the grass, surrounded by moss covered oak trees. It was a glorious time with Daddy.

One day we were tired of reading and feeling the effects of the Georgia heat in July. We were new to the area, but Daddy heard that there was a blue hole somewhere in the county. The county is pretty big, so we started out on an adventure to find this magical blue hole that would cool us off and make us the happiest children within a thirty mile radius.

We piled into our grey Pontiac Lemans, possibly one of the worst cars ever made. As you can guess, the air conditioning didn't work and we were sticking to the seats as we road all over the back roads of the county, in desperate search of the infamous blue hole. We rode for what seemed like hours, but in all actuality was probably half a hour. We couldn't find it. We were so disappointed and hot!

All of the sudden, we spotted water ahead...hitting the road. I am going to say it--an irrigation system was shooting water onto the road. Daddy pulled off of the road and with raised eyebrows said, "Want to get in?" My brother and I popped out of the car immediately while our sister sulked in the front seat with a look of "oh my gosh, how embarrassing. I would never do that." My brother and I stood, in our swim suits, on the edge of the road and waited with expectant faces for the water to hit us. I am giggling as I write this--the water finally came around and pelted us hard and brief and we squealed with delight. I think my dad had a better time watching us than anything else. I think eventually my sister joined in the fun, even if it was out of desperation for something to cool her off.

We never found that infamous blue hole, although I still hear about it pretty often, so I guess it does exist. We did find each other that summer, standing on the side of the road waiting to get hit by chemical enriched water.

so long...

Well, it has been a long time coming for this post...I think I've gotten to a point that I need to write so here goes...

I've been reflecting a lot lately...I am a thinker, reflector, yada yada, but summer usually brings back a flood of memories and time to debrief. I finished all of my coursework for grad school last week and only have student teaching to complete before graduating in December 2010. I can't believe it. I have said so many hellos and goodbyes in the past year.

Let's go back one year--I was sitting in the hospital with my sister in Atlanta, praying that we would make it home for my brother's wedding. I still can't believe all of that happened. I was preparing to say goodbye to home and friends and to say hello to Tennessee, old friends, and a new world of grad school.

In the past year, I have seen my brother become more of the man he is meant to be, support his wife in the loss of her mother; I have gained a sister-in-law that knows my heart more than most people; I have watched my sister take an amazing journey of faith that is real and breathing and full of discovery; I have walked alongside my parents to see true healing come after many years of hurt; I said goodbye to my granddaddy; I said hello to 27 around the same time; I have been embraced by a community of believers here that have supported me in amazing, tangible ways; I said hello to some of the dearest friends from all around the world that I will ever know; and I said goodbye to two of them which pretty much guarantees that I will be in Spain some time in the near future. And I am about to say goodbye to my roommate and hello to another one. I am full.

I am where I am. I am present here. Life is messy and complicated and simple and beautiful all at once. What a gift God has given me--to be present to people, no matter if we are together or miles away. That's what the Spirit does for us...always present if we only look and see...or stop and breathe. Loss and gain...love and struggle...it is all in his grasp.

Praise God for the mess. Thank you to those who have embraced mine and let me embrace yours.